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Wednesday, February 6th

The Creative Bug

music: "Mysterious Ways" by U2

Sometimes the bug bites you. It would appear that I have been using Raid for a very long time. I think my "Raid" could be entitled "life change". Instead of letting it feed the bug like it can do so well, I reverse engineered it so that it killed it. Let's see if I can now return the formula to its natural state.

What is the creative bug? It's a bolt of lightning that hits you in the head and sends amperage pulsing through your body. Your legs run to the nearest source of information gathering, such as a laptop, moleskin, sticky pad, crayon and wall, etc. etc. and some more etc. Your arms flail about, often uncontrollably as you try pass the current out of your mind in a way that is both legible and sensical. You make up words. You stream your consciousness until it runs dry. You breathe a sigh of relief. You stop to wonder if you spelled "breathe" correctly for only a few moments. You'll ask forgiveness from your English-teaching mother later.

The bug is pure energy that can't be measured. It's a cricket of power. How did I ever come up with a Raid formula powerful enough to kill a bug that is, by definition, pure power?

And so, as I smile at this gigantic power cricket, welcoming him back into my life, I think about our relationship. So often I call upon him only when asked. It is hard to plan your life around his visits, though he often arrives at the worst possible times. And he doesn't always do what he is supposed to do. He's not a tame cricket.

The question that keeps swirling about in my mind is how do we, the Church, cultivate a healthy power-cricket infestation? The box we have tried to keep him in for so long has almost starved him. He must look a certain way and act a certain way and only at certain times. It doesn't matter if what he produces is excellent, just as long as it's different and he tried hard. Of course, the Church is so out-of-touch with culture that we wouldn't know excellence if it hit us with a 2x4. We rely on commissioning him to do things we've already seen, and take us to places we've already been. In fact, if he doesn't take us right down the road we expected to travel with no surprises, he has failed.

When Paul wrote about the attitude of Christ in Philippians, the only way he could do it was to break into poetry. David spent hours writing songs about God. Many of them made the final cut in the Big Book. The Bible is full of lyrics, prose, poetry, and music. It seems that somehow God just can't be understood completely without a tune. So why do we do it backwards? We present a set of beliefs then commission art to try and neatly explain them. What if we reversed it? What if we grew in our understanding of God by exploring our creativity? Let the cricket out of the box and see what happens.

I'm not saying we get rid of the Sistine Chapel and the Hallelujah Chorus. Those were some great commissions. But let's be free to explore our faith through creativity. Let the spirit guide us in a language that can only be spoken with images, rhyme, music, color, and sound.

Open up that window to the soul and let the power-cricket in.



Alec on 02.06.08 @ 12:06 AM CST [link]


Monday, June 11th

The Fad Driven Church

mood: contemplative

Last week I ran into a friend wearing a Marithe Francois Girbaud t-shirt. It was well worn and obviously he kept the shirt for activities such as painting, changing a tire, cleaning a grease trap, and/or rigorous yard work. It was one step up from a shop-rag. The irony is that just fifteen years ago, this same shirt would have been a must-have for navigating the top-tier middle school social circles.

When I was in middle school (in the early nineties), everyone who was anyone had a pair of Girbaud jeans. There was nothing exceptional about them. Their look was post-eighties, standing in the gap between acid-washed and pre-worn. There was a little white tag on the zipper area that said "Girbaud". Essentially, that was what you were paying for. They were the hot jean to have.

I remember wanting a pair so badly. Middle school is that special time when you decide that there is nothing special about being special, and that it is better to be like everyone else. And so I was desperate to be like everyone else. Of course, Girbauds were name-brand, designer jeans, and that was never going to happen in my house. But I held out hope. I remember going to Burlington Coat Factory where I knew we could find good deals on expensive jeans, and the only Girbauds I could find were a pair of overalls, which were also popular at the time. My mom, being very wise, would not buy them for me, because she knew they would look horrible on me. She was right. But I was desperate to fit in, and so Girbaud overalls were a must-have. I couldn't understand why she wouldn't buy them for me.

Hindsight is twenty-twenty, and I am so thankful I don't have to look at any awkward pictures of myself in overalls. Thank you, Mom. It is also amusing to me that when I came across my friend in his old Girbaud t-shirt, we polled several of our friends who were five years younger than us, and none of them had any idea what Girbauds were. They were a must-have fifteen years ago -- a source of adolescent idolatry -- but now they are nothing more than worn out rags.

Culture is obsessed with fads. We are obsessed with being a part of the "in" thing, even though in five years it will be forgotten, filthy towels on the garage floor. It is a habit we adopt sometime around middle school, when we become aware of our worth, and we spend the rest of our lives trying to keep up, to wear the right plumage no matter how ridiculous it may seem. And all the while, Innocence stands in the corner shouting, "the emperor has no clothes!"

It is no different in the Christian community.

A few years ago when I went into ministry, a coworker described for me how trends came and went in campus ministry. There would be some huge ministry that had a great speaker or cool worship leader or hot girls or something, and it would be the place to be. Hundreds upon hundreds of people would come, and everyone would brag about how well the church must be doing to warrant such blessing. The chuch would start looking trendy, with well-defined social circles. There would be an in-crowd of those with stylish beliefs, education, sense of style, etc, of which everyone was unconsciously aware and hoped to become a part. It would be the hip church.

And then time would pass, the speaker would go to a different job, the worship leader would move on, the church would change locations to a place far from campus, and/or the girls would graduate, and popularity would diminish. Then a new church would come along with a new speaker/worship leader/girls/etc., and it would become the place to be, and hundreds would come, and everyone would pat their own back. And those who stayed at the last church would wonder what happened, still reliving the glory days, treating everyone else like they are still the place to be when everyone knows they aren't, and maybe getting a little bitter about it.

Fad churches come and go. The people look good, the graphics look good, the worship is exciting and tight, and in five years, something newer, better-looking, and more exciting will come along.

Please don't get me wrong. I believe the spirit moves in fad churches. I don't think most fad churches start out as fad churches. I think the people who created Girbaud jeans created something unique, exquisite, and perfect for the moment. But soon Girbauds became the "thing to wear", and anything that was new and exciting was lost in the roar of the crowd who had no appreciation for uniqueness, but was desperate to be just like everyone else. In the same way, the spark that made a church the place to be can be trampled by a crowd desperate for a church that is the place to be.

What is the answer? I think it requires humility. We have to be honest with ourselves. We must evaluate our success using a formula other than raw numbers. If 1,000 new members includes only one new Christian, then the actual growth of the church -- i.e. the Lord's church on Earth, the bride of Christ -- is only one. Church transfer growth does not count! If the other 999 left their church to join yours, nothing will stop them from leaving your church when the new fad comes.

It's easy to to think when raw numbers are good that we must be doing everything right. No one stops to question where the numbers are coming from. No one wants to admit they are a fad. If it is all tied to a person, or lights and mirrors, or a sense of "cool", then we must accept that the fad will soon move on to the newer, shinier thing.

But a church that is obsessed with the gospel of grace, where social circles expand to love people for who they are, rather than contract to draw people in to the "next cool thing", is a church that will endure. This is a church obsessed with the person of Christ. Christ offers a new life, a life for which we were created. It is not the latest trend where everyone is like everyone else. He wants us to be like Him.

Jesus was a drifter who went into people's homes. He didn't carry himself like a king. In fact, he told his followers to carry very little and to depend on the kindness of strangers. He was obsessed with loving people. His community was small, but his followers were many, because he loved with passion, served the sick and poor, and ultimately suffered the worst death, abandoned and alone, for people who didn't deserve it ... us.

We must be obsessed with people. We must give our lives for them, as Jesus did. We must never forget that we have nothing to be proud of except our God who goes before us. We must be humble, always ready to admit when we have lost touch with the broken and searching who could never penetrate our tight circles of attractive smiles and flashy graphics. We have to stop patting our backs and take time to find our blemishes. We have to love, love, love, and love some more, always aware that just because they keep coming doesn't mean we haven't made mistakes.

It might mean we have to stay small. We shouldn't be content with transfer growth -- in fact, we shouldn't desire it all. We should be eager to get just big enough that we can split and start a new church in a new community of people who need to see the grace of God. Like Paul, we must be all things to all people, not the cool thing that all people should want to be. We must be a go-to church rather than a come-to church.

Ultimately, Christ offers us freedom from fads. He offers us freedom from desiring acceptance from others. Instead, we find our identity in Him. If our church ceases to find its identity in Him, it becomes subject to the rules of culture. Culture is obsessed with fads, not longevity.

Christ's love will endure to the end of time and beyond, stretching out to infinity. Our fads have a shelf-life of five years. Let's build for infinity, not for the garage floor.

Alec on 06.11.07 @ 09:23 PM CST [link]


Friday, February 9th

Come, Spring

mood: cold

Today is one of those special types of cloudy days where the entire sky is a field of grey, with no indication as to where the sun is hiding. The sun's light gets filtered through a thick, cold blanket.

I am ready for the groundhog's predictions to come true. I am ready for warm, sunlight afternoons in the park, with a fresh breeze and the smell of spring wildflowers.

But winter gets one more month to do its worst, and it feels like it is mustering all of its energy for the best assault it can manage. I hope it is a miserable failure.

Come, Spring.


Alec on 02.09.07 @ 05:20 PM CST [link]


Wednesday, February 7th

Storage Units

music: the dryer
mood: working on it

She walked with a limp. I am guessing she was in her forties, but maybe fifties. She convinced me that winter was now over for us in Austin. Her plants had told her, as well as the morning songs of the birds. I figured they were as reliable sources of information as a groundhog, so I had no room to doubt. It feels nice to live in a city where winter ends by early February.

She took me to my little five by ten cell, where my belongings would live. And then she gave me some wisdom.

"We're the only country that has a storage industry. They're all over the place. Other countries, if you don't have room for it, you throw it in the river. Or you leave it out for someone else. Or it gets added to the landscape. But we keep our stuff." I found it ironic that she was speaking of her own profession in relation to our culture so matter-of-factly. It was if she despised our culture and completely embraced it in the exact same breath.

I stared at the little mosoleum for my belongings. My treasures. I will store them there until I need them, which, in truth, is never. I don't need any of it. I should throw it in the river. Or give it all away.

After all, it's ash, Every last bit of it.

Alec on 02.07.07 @ 03:24 PM CST [link]


Tuesday, February 6th

Tiger Tiger

music: 'Today' by Smashing Pumpkins
mood: curious

Sitting alone in your room at night, as the thoughts spin around inside your head, your guitar is your only friend, and it is the only way to sleigh the demons inside. Of course, I am not talking about spiritual warfare. That is something else entirely. I am talking about those pesky little thoughts that seem evil because they keep pushing you. In fact, they are the demon slayers, as what they force out of you spews onto paper in a way that inspires.

The creative spirit is brought forth from the Almighty. It leaves a residue which shapes they way we look at the world. It is another way to help us understand a little more of who God is. The roar of a tiger and the bay of a lamb spring fourth with all the terror and gentleness that is God. From his pen they emerged.

And so we commit ourselves to the paper.


Alec on 02.06.07 @ 04:43 PM CST [link]


Monday, February 5th

Super Bowls

music: 'Hands Open' by Snow Patrol
mood: longing

If I here one more sermon about how horrible it is that we get more excited for the Super Bowl than for church, I am going to run out of the room screaming. There is a reason we get more excited for the Super Bowl. I am not saying it's a good thing.

The god of most churches demands perfection because of what the neighbors will think. The god of most churches has no power to comfort, heal, and set free. Freedom in most churches is defined as dressing up, saying things like "I am so blessed" all the time, listening to the right radio station, and being a Republican. You have the freedom to do those things. If you can't keep up, then you have the freedom to get really depressed.

I want to play on the winning team, led by men of legend, capable of overcoming impossible obstacles to experience true victory. Now that is more exciting than the Super Bowl. I would get excited about the God of that church.

Awake, oh Sleeper.

Alec on 02.05.07 @ 05:47 PM CST [link]


Saturday, February 3rd

Whatever

music: nothing
mood: nothing

I am trying to write emails, and I feel like I need to blog. So I am going to force it tonight.

I don't like to force it.

Stream of consciousness ...

...

The stream ain't flowing ...

Here we go:

It makes me really sad that golden retrievers were overbred. Now an amazing breed is nothing like it used to be. Ask me about Jenny. She was my childhood dog, and perhaps the best friend I have ever had. But even she had her problems, and her puppies grew up to have hip problems like the rest of the breed. Except now they aren't a sweet and tender breed anymore. They are unpredicatable and stupid. It's Idiocracy in action. The dumbing down of America in canine form. It is what we are headed for. If you don't believe me, watch an episode of Jackass or any other show on Fox or MTV for ten minutes. We will all be dumb golden retrievers soon enough.

Man, I loved that dog. There will never be another like her.

Alec on 02.03.07 @ 11:46 PM CST [link]